On Monday evening 7-25, I had a rough day at work, and some other struggles going on personally and with my family. I had already been fussing with my son and wife, and then the paint can spilled on the cushioned chair in the kitchen area....it was defiantly one of those "aaargh" moments. I certainly felt I was missing out on some of the good things of God and the devil was basically telling me that what was the point, I was a looser and I would never amount to anything and that I might as well give up. I ended up going to bed discouraged. And I woke up the next morning, feeling much the same way.
But God faithfully went before me, helping me see his mercy and grace in the midst. I could feel the clouds of discouragement lifting as I began my drive to work. I spent time praying and worshipping as I drove. It was becoming a very personal encounter with the Father as I felt him loving on me and encouraging my spirit.
And then came the unexpected kiss. I went to Kwikshop to get some gas and a coffee. When I walked into the store the Father put the icing on what was beginning to become a very intimate, healing time. My already soft heart was prepared for His kiss. Playing on the overhead speaker in the store was a song by Faith Hill..."The way you love me".
"Oh, I love the way, love the way you love me...there's nowhere else I'd rather be.
Oh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me...I only wish that you could see the way you love me. ".
I was done! I started crying as I poured the coffee in my cup. Wow...a kiss from Father! It was so intimate and special. I was still wiping tears from my eyes as I got into line to pay.
As I got into my car to continue my commute, the words still resonated I'm my head. I had a deep sense that The Father was so pleased with me...even in my weak moments; when my failings seemed so clear and through all my struggles with discouragement, He was pleased with me. And even my weak love of worshipping Him and praying had so captivated His heart that He wanted me to know that He loved the way I loved Him.
"Oh, I love the way you love me, Graham."
I love you too, Abba!
